The photo

Tonight I uploaded the photo, from the banner of this page, to be printed on canvas for my bedroom. I was staring at the photo remembering that beautiful summer day.  Our hearts were already heavy. We all hoped we would be wrong, but deep down, I think we all knew what the outcome would be.  As I stared at the photo our faces fan across the screen with mom in focus and April becoming blurry. I can't really say why I love this photo so much, other than SHE was the reason for us. She is what makes us who we are. She was the most important thing to all of us.

A note to my mom:

Mom, I have been missing you so much this week. So much has happened in the past few weeks and I wish you were here to share it with me. I wish I could call you as ideas come to me, like I always used to.  I miss hearing your voice. I miss your perfume. I miss your hands. (I think that is another reason I love that photo so much, your hands.)  It's so hard to believe you have been gone so long.  You seem so close to me in my heart. I love you so much and I wish you were here to share this special time with me. Please know that I still try to hear your voice and the advice you would most likely give to me.

Your loving daughter.